Tsukiko's Blog

Where does the endless rain cloud in my mind really wander to?

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Keep trying, for it always gets better Often times I've been having a series of sadness swallowing, dwelling over me. I had made the resolution to be less sad this year, but sometimes it still slips out. I don't know what to do. I am feeli…

Flustered 072316

Lately I don't feel like I have much feelings towards anything, I did however get more into kpop which is a good thing to keep my mind on for a while. But I feel the pressure of the future slowly approaching my doorstep, and knowing such a…

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I'm such a horrible person there are almost no words to explain my feelings at the moment. I can't believe that even at the times where I sound grieve, there's still room for anger. I don't want to be mad anymore, I don't want to be easily…

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Lately I have been having trouble with saying things to my friends. I'm not sure if it's unintended or not, but I feel like I'm usually being ignored. Nowadays I'm scared to say anything in their conversations. I'm hanging out with them to…

🌸 New Persona

I don't often feel like a new year matters, but there are multiple occasions nowadays, where I feel the need to reinvent myself. My attitude since 2015 haven't been desirable. Which is why I felt the gaping hole in my heart as the year en…

Where Do I Go..

I feel lost, like, something undescrible in my chest is constantly pounding my insides. I've made a resolution to stay positive this school year, and I feel like i'm in a black hole trying to find pieces of light. I want to leave my friend…

A Faulted Start

Lately, just lately. I feel irritated. The fresh start wasn't exactly "Fresh" it was more rotten than it was ever fresh. I haven't seen "him" lately, which brings me relief all over. However, this school year feels empty, it's only been th…

I'm stuck

There is a pain in my chest. It hasn't stopped in a long time. I'm not in pain But.... One thing is for sure... I am not satisfied with life... I'm Stuck I'm Lost I'm Unsure of why I exist I'm Tearing apart I'm Dying inside I'm Desperate f…

Predicted or Planned?

What if everything you knew or thought would happen, actually happened... and you couldn't do anything about it even though it was right in front of you?The fresh start I thought was a fresh start really wasn't all that great. I tried so m…

Sometimes it's Bothering Me

What do I do when a fresh start is given to you, but you feel like you can't quite take it?School starts today, I feel anxious yet bothersome today. My friend is sleeping and I'm still awake at this ridiculous hour due to insomnia. I feel …

How it all went down

If I were to be asked "would you ever do this again?" I would probably shake my head in desperation and cry from remembering how it all went... Today i'm writing about my experience from 7th grade when I had moved schools, and how things w…

I feel like i'm slowly sinking...

I can lay in a pile of flowers and be at peace with my entire self, but the thing is, the only time I will ever lay in a pile of flowers... Is my funeral... I feel like... i'm not sure of myself anymore, lately I keep feeling like im bothe…

The times where the rude comments hurt.

When you hurt someone sometimes, it's unintentional, but when people don't like your honesty, they're basically telling you to dig a hole and to not come out of it until you you can lie to their face and pretend to tell them it'll be okay.…

My dream

So I had an almost terrifying dream that made me too scared to go back to sleep. But for some reason the theme that appeared was frightening. It was fairytales I was scared and I knew I was in this dream, but I was so scared, I couldn't wa…

Is There Room?

Is there ever room for one more person? I feel like a nuisance lately, like I'm not exactly good enough to speak out loud or do anything for my own good. Sometimes I feel like my "friends" put everything I say interpret it like it's some t…

QUICKWRITE : The Drought ( part 2 )

How does heat make our hearts sane but our minds insane? I wandered the streets the night of my birthday, seemingly lucky, the stars have shown themselves, glistening like reflecting water. I greet the elders with a bow and only show them …

QUICKWRITE: The Drought (part 1)

The wait is pointless. Like waiting for the water to pour in an endless drought... My name is Latisse. The things in my life include a lot of people. But it doesn't exactly mean excitement. I live with 8 siblings me included makes it a has…

The Sleepless Night

Threre are so many stars, yet so many more reasons to blind them in our selfishness...Those sleepless nights people have, this is one of them for me. I can't seem to keep my eyes shut. I end up feeling confused about my existence at this h…

The Tiresome Things

What would you see in her eyes, if she saw nothing in hers? There are a few things I just can't understand, how do I look up when I'm feeling down? How can I act vividly when there is nothing to be vivid about? Lately I feel like it's just…

Sometimes There's No Time to Cry

Lately, I feel empty, but it's not from people not being there in my life. I feel like there's nothing. Not loneliness, just plain space. Is it weird I am suddenly feeling this way, this path that makes me question my existence? Almost eve…

What Corrupts you?

I feel, like there's nowhere else to go. What corrupts me, is something even I have nobody to tell anymore. Those people I trust. I will push them away, and they will cease to exist, I know these things as a fact, the things are just too g…

Is it wrong?

If you fail once, try, try, again. What if I get sick of trying? More like, I am, the feeling of never getting the person you like to ever look your way. It's painful. I like someone, but it feels like i'm digging my own grave, a deep, dee…

You know that feeling...

you know despair, you know regret, you know all the sad things are, where they're hiding, every nook and cranny, you know they're hiding, so why do we still end up running into those sad things instead of the happy things? Sometimes I feel…

Oyasumi

I've been having trouble sleeping I've been having a rough time sleeping recently... I keep thinking things and having a rough time, Maybe im just overdoing / thinking it... But I feel sad at some point and I end up not sleeping at all.. W…